Day 1: To reflect.
Today is the day I started this blog, well yesterday but bear with me through this blog learning process.
I came across this post from someone on FB I thought it was cute and a bit motivational.
“You're really something, do you know that? And in spite of whatever may happen in your day, you are going to stay that way: trying & giving & living life in the best way you know how. So keep your SPIRTS up, & keep things in perspective. It's going to be okay.
You've made it through difficult things before, right? RIGHT!! And you always land on your feet. Maybe not dancing: maybe not always sure about what to do next....
But you always manage to figure things out, especially when you're able to keep your sense of humor and not lose your smile. If you really think about it, you'll realize that you are a very strong person,. Someone who may not have all the answers, but who is at least willing to hope, try and believe.
You can see your way through just about ANYTHING: it all depends on how you look at it. And when people look at you, they see someone who really is...pretty amazing.”
That post really applies to anything, I like it, that is exactly something one has to say to themselves in those dark moments we will have several times in our life. The dark days when you almost feel like you’ll never get out of, and at the end of it realize you always do overcome these obstacles from hell.
Recently within the last few weeks I came across one of these dark moments. I felt I kind of got lost where I want to be, who I want to be, and what I want to feel. New York has a tendency to mangle up my good energy with the bad and its as if I miss it when I’m not here and I want to leave when I am finally back. So along with this depression came 40lbs of regret. So not only was I depressed but now fat and depressed lmao. Which will put anyone into a depression coma, however... after my one pair of fat pants got tight... I got scared. I finally told myself NO.
Here’s my track record:
- · 2008 150 = size 9-10
- · 2009 180 = size 13
- · 2010 150 = yay low 9’s (I think I was more toned than in 2008)
- · 2011 194 = frumpy blob.
The photos are probably the most embarrassing part of it because people I know are probably looking at this. But I’m just going to own up to the weight and do it.
Now considering this is one of my first posts, I should get into detail as to why I’m doing this so publicly. Well it’s to keep myself motivated and to make myself accountable for what I tell people I am doing lol. Yes it would be easy to lie however, it’s hard to lie about 30lbs of weight I haven’t lost in the next 6 months, hopefully I won’t fail, lol. The hardest part is when I lose that first 30lbs I end up believing that it was a major feat and die down on the workouts. This time.. I’m hoping to keep going till I hit my goal weight. For my height, bone structure, body type what have you I’m going to go down to 125 or a size 4-5 whichever comes first.
During my husband’s last deployment I lost a whopping 30lbs!! Which was great, I fit into my awesome size 9 shorts and felt amazing. The only downside… I didn’t realize it was because of the lack of food I kept in the house cause I would buy food that I liked (whole wheat everything, and mostly seafood). The 5 miles a day I walked with my best friend definitely helped too.
My husband is a chicken/beef, mac & cheese, mac & cheese with beef, fettuccini alfredo, kind of guy, won’t eat anything fried or too much breading, BUT he’s a crap food freak especially sweets. He can sit and eat an entire box of Little Debbies or even a box of dozen donuts by himself. Pretty much leaves me staring at him like o_O’ Being in the Army he used to do an hour of P.T. (physical training) every morning during the week which helped him not gain the GAZILLION POUNDS he should have gained (stupid boys). The P.T. Consisted of roughly 3-7 miles of running depending on the day, grappling, little workouts like crunches, push-ups that sort of thing. I don’t like sweets like that, my kryptonite is fried things, and then watching my husband eat three plates of food mounded onto our largest plate at dinner doesn’t help.
The plan:
I’m going to start off easy, walk/jog three times a week 2 miles roughly 30 minutes or less. Adding mileage if time allows me to. My goal within the next couple of weeks is to be running the 2 miles with as little to no breaks in between, soon after I want to be able to get back to my 8 minute miles. I’m in need of major cardio, I walked up a couple flights of stairs the other day and broke out into a sweat and felt myself out of breath. Funny thing is I used to live on the second floor in Georgia so I must have gone up and down stairs several times a day.
As for monitoring food intake I’m using an iPhone app for that, Spark People is a good app, so is Lose It.
The differences:
Both Spark and Lose It allows you to add current weight, your goal weight, date in which you want to lose that weight by, food intake, how many calories you should eat in order to lose 2lbs a week and also workout logs plus how many calories you probably burned. The only thing different between the two is that Lose It has motivator notifications that remind you to add food intake or log workouts if you haven’t. You can adjust to your liking how often and what time to be notified. I personally have all four (breakfast, lunch, dinner and snacks) set up so that it either A. Reminds me to eat or B. Reminds me to log. The other difference which is the reason why I have both Lose It and Spark People is that Spark People has a suggested meal plan. They also have Spark Recipes which is a nice app to have. You can do a search under calories, for those days that you’re only allowed another 100 calories. I on the other hand, would just eat the extra 100 calories if it came down to it and just make sure to do something to burn it off. The whole key is to burn more than what you’re consuming.
Another app I have is iMapMyRun which has a GPS locator to follow the route you run. I love this app, because it tells me my speed, time, how long I’ve been running, the distance, and the estimated burned calories. It also logs your walk/runs/jogs, it can also takes into consideration the terrain which is a neat feature. The plus side is it also has compatible devices you may particularly use for working out (i.e. Heartbeat sensor).
As for weight training, I am doing resistance bands, I found that I can easily pull the band out whenever, wedge it into a door, and do it as I catch up on missed shows. Also I used to use them when I was in physical therapy for my back so hopefully the pain that started to come back will cease soon enough.
A GREAT recipe book to have is Hungry Girl or Rocco Dispirito, Now Eat This! Diet. Hungry Girl has this Captain crunch (cereal) Shake that is AMAZING, plus all her recipes are super easy and you start to realize what to substitute eventually on your own. Similar with Rocco Dispirito’s book, except his has flash fried-fried chicken lol, and his is more of a lifestyle change, how to eat what and when and working out tips and such. To be honest, I saw his photo on the front, thought he was incredibly good looking, and saw that there was an alternative to frying chicken lmao hahaha SOLD! Hungry Girl was introduced to me by my best friend Amy who was my walking buddy. We got into this freak weight loss mode. I wasn’t allowed to post her picture on FaceBook because of the possibility that her deployed husband will see it and she wanted it to be a surprise. YOU KNOW HOW HARD IT WAS!! I was so excited for her LMAO, she looked great (past tense cause she’s now 8 months pregnant with her third, BUT still at 8 months preggers weighs less than before she got pregnant with her second child. YAY! Amy!)
Ok… Now the stats and photo...
Current weight: 189
Weight lost: -5lbs
11/6/2011 189lbs (fruppy blob)
09/01/2010 150lbs
At least getting to this point would be nice.
